Escapism

Escapism can only be transitory. One cannot eternally escape anything in life, but we still try to escape; only to make things nastier. Face the facts and something can be done about it. what we avoid does not go away from us. It gets uglier and then it revisits you making you think, "I should have... I could have... I must have...". Everything that was ever solved was because somebody was willing to face it the facts. It all starts with a courage to face the facts. In facing the facts you are looking at life square in the eye courageosly knowing very well that something can be done about it. Escapism is not for people like us. What must be faced, must be faced, sooner or later.

TT Ranga Rajan

Frozen Thoughts

My School

This is my school from where I did my Xth, XIth and XIIth standards. I love my school. I had great days out there. Lots of masti and fun. OMG what days!!! Nothing in this world can make my forget those days.

My Sis's birthday

Celebrated my sis's birthday on 25th July. I was there at my mom's house since morning. Enjoyed a lot.

How do I handle this?

My husband is definitely not perfect. But out of his many imperfections, there is one which is so adorable at times. My husband is very possesive about me (which I think any body shud be). Yesterday I was watching some was film starring George Clooney. I very casually mentioned that I find George Clooney very sexy. He is one actor who despite his age (he is 48 as on date) looks so damn hot that my tongue hangs out every time I see him. My husband after listening to my ode of love promptly changed the channel and said that this film is not very exciting.
Now, how do I handle this?

MJ bids adieu to the world

Chunmun - My new friend

it rained a few days back. hmm... precisely on 10th of this month. I took these snaps with this little birdie. Her name is Chunmun. The owner of the bird is a girl from our building and rescued the bird when she was just a baby. Its a baby sparrow. Sparrows are pretty rare in Hyderabad. but a nice little cutie.

God Bharai function

with my husband


waiting to start



my mother in law blessing me

guest of hounour

These pics are a few of them from the 7th month event. In India once an expecting mother is nearing the completion of her 7 months of pregnancy, there is a huge function wherein married ladies come and bless her. This is known as "God Bharai". Ladies bless the expectant mother with 5 diffrent types of fruits and also a gift (optional). They also remove nazar (evil eye) to protect her from all possible mishaps. A sumptuous meal is prepared and first the mother has to eat and only then can the rest of the family, friends and near an dear ones can start eating.

I got lots and lots of blessings as well as gifts. Lots of sarees actually. Love sarees a lot. My pallu of the sareee was filled with fruits and gifts; so much that I cudn't even get up. My husband was the official photographer of the event. Did his best to feel comforfortable among so many ladies. my fater in law and my husband were the only 2 men in the house. poor guys!!

Now its only 2 months left. but the most 2 important months. And then child caring begins OMG

Golden Words

"Relationships are always tricky ---- whether its with ur beau, BFF, or mom. The key to healthy relationships is to keep the basic rules in mind. Never take anyone u love for granted. Thats the most common and worst mistake. Give back, chip in and be thankful. "

My Mother (Tuesday, June 2, 2009 7:00 PM) Via email

My Addiction

People ask me “what makes me feel sexy?” I have a very simple answer “it’s my husband who makes me feels sexy”. It’s neither clothes, nor lingerie, nor money, nor a gorgeous body nothing. It is he, who makes all the difference to me. He is my world. I always think about him. I always thought about him. And will always think about him. I am just 3 and 1/2 years old in the industry but have seen best of the best relationships go kaput.

People ask me how come I do not drink as in consume any liquor or do smoking or drugs. That is simple because I addicted to my husband. Loving him is an addiction to me. It started slowly but with time it has become an addiction, an obsession. I simply can’t do without him. I need him all the time during depression, during happiness, when I am alone or when I am with people. ALL THE TIME.

A piece of advice

Dating/Marriage has gone through many phases but nowadays its more of a time pass. Neither people value current relationships nor do they maintain the old ones. New bond create new relationships. After a while, then hell breaks loose most of the time. My mom keeps telling me stories and incidents from her own experience. And this is what I gathered. Simple piece of thought but I found it very useful.


Initially when you are going around with someone, you need to do a lot of proving. As in proving your capabilities, your loyalties, and your stability. But later on, you don’t need to prove anything but instead you need to sustain what you have proven. That’s the time when the real challenge begins. Otherwise don’t set expectations. Because reaching at the top is comparatively easy but staying isn’t. There’s is always someone to pull you down as and when people get the chance. Love in its initial stages is very colorful, with lots of frills and show and promises a lot. But as the bond solidifies this same love transforms itself into trust, compatibility. But many feel that love is dying, he doesn’t take me out, doesn’t give me gifts. It’s not a man’s endeavor any more; to keep the romance alive the woman also has to pitch in and sometimes take the lead. What I feel is without comparing you to his sister, mother or any other female in his life, you as a wife need to become indispensable over a period of time. That is what will make a marriage really successful you should be his pride with out giving competition or bad vibes to any of the existing relationships. You should be a good natured soul whom people can look up to and not look down upon.

Missed you Love so much

Last night was one night. I had gone to my parents' house. LAter on I wanted my husband to come and pick me up. but then instead he said it will be late for him to come. So he asked me " why dont you stay in your mom's home tonight?" I was overjoyed and agreed to it.

Later in the night, I was sleeping with my sis as usual. Was giving her my gyan as usual till 2 pm. after that both of us said goodnight and went off to sleep. But even then my bad luck continued. Sleep eluded me and I was tossing in the bed. Got up had a bath and again tried to sleep. Missed my husband like I dunno what. In these 10 months of being married, I am now so used to shouting at him to close the tv, cuddling upto him and then pushing him away in sleep. Later again when I start to miss him, I pull him back, hug him and sleep huddled.

Oh! what a night!!! I missed him sooooo much. I never thought I would miss him like this.

Totally disillusioned...I must say

All throught these years I have passed/met so many people in my life. Kind of known them either in-depth or even superficially. Always wanted to know a person, who is completely free from biases, non judgemental and a heart of pure gold. Whenever I have met a person, be it girl or a boy, initially seemed nice. But over a period of time when it came to testing times, they have simply dissolved away. They couldn’t take it and eventually I couldn’t take it that I have been betrayed. Every time I have believed in people in friendship in trust in mental tuning, I have been hurt in a terrible way. These things I just cannot forget. Because I gave my 100% to every one without pretending. Now I know it wasn’t a fault with me it was simply my bad luck to have landed with these many people who never deserved me, who will never understand what it is to be genuinely feeling someone’s pain.

My mom says there has to be mental tuning with the man whom you marry. Correct. But in my case I married a man who is poles apart from me, yet he is just and a true friend to everybody. My husband is one such man. In all these 8 years that I have known him, never once have I heard him uttering a bad word against anyone. And if he does, he always has a very solid reason for it. He is nice with words to even the guy who stole his ex-girlfriend (he jokingly took potshots though).

Till date I have never called anybody "a gem of a person". I was nayyyyyy I am so disillusioned. But now I feel tempted